2013

This post was supposed to be written 5 days ago, but because I had to take my supp papers (trust me it isn't any much different from the promos paper), I was busy mugging and couldn't start with it. Pardon my English, it has never been good. 

Looking back at 2012. 

School:

A transition from secondary school to junior college was a much bigger change than what I thought it will be. New classmates, new environment, new teachers. Everything is new. Sadly, I couldn't accept such a change and this landed to what have become of me now. 

To be honest, J1 is a year I admit that I studied the least. It is like all of a sudden, I lost my motivation to work hard. And although I tried to catch up after June holidays, it is really too late. When I finally realized I couldn't catch up with my work and went like "Shit. I just ruined myself", promos were around the corner. 

So obviously I didn't manage to promote and had to take the supp papers, which I spent the whole December holiday to work on. (And I don't think I did well since I only had 1 and a half months to relearn one year worth of topics of Chem and Maths)

I really don't want to think negatively, but it's true that there's a possibility that I'll just retain and unable to graduate with my friends (and people might just judge me.) But as what my grandma said, "you really shouldn't be thinking of what people think of you now. It's not a bad thing you retain, at least it gives you another one more year to build up your foundation." I guess my grandma's right. So if I really did not manage to promote, I will accept the fact and start all over again. 

And if just so luckily, I manage to promote to J2, I'll only have 10 months to A levels. Within 10 months, I've got to learn new stuffs and make sure I don't forget what I learnt last year. It's really gonna be so tough. And just thinking about it makes me scared about going to J2. (I'm only gonna worry about this next week, if the school tells me I passed my supp papers.)

I think I really got no excuse to failing my promos and getting myself into this deep shit. Because everyone has the same workload (in fact, I'm sure I don't have to most), everyone has this thing called PW, everyone has CCAs to attend. So I really got no reason to fail. 

Project work:

I just have to talk about this individually. Because it's something that I probably will never experience ever again. I'm quite glad I got a really good pw teacher - Mr Edwin Lim. I swear his is one of the few teachers I really like although he is so picky and particular about our small little teeny weeny bits of mistakes in our PI, EoM, InR, WR and even OP. He makes sure all of our work are perfectly done and can still be so fun during lesson time. 

And Sodaman-Go! My groupmates, woonyee, liangjun, zhixuan and yechun. Although we might not be the best pw group, but it was a really enjoying journey with them. We rushed through so many deadlines and burnt midnight oil together, esp the period after promos. I remember those times when me and woonyee were the ones doing the work till late at night in school, complaining to each other about the guys in our group and videochatting with each other to keep ourselves awake. How zhixuan was hospitalized so we had to have our pw meeting in the hospital (which became the most unproductive session). All the interviewing sessions we tried so hard to get, and going down personally to interview someone. Not forgetting translating our surveys into Tamil and Bangladeshi language for the construction workers to do. It was difficult and all, but that sense of accomplishment we got, when we achieved a certain aim, was great. Even until our last lap of the journey, OP, we worked so hard for it, helping each other to think of questions and familiarizing the scripts.

Project Work is really something that you would love and hate at the same time. All the fun I had doing pw with my groupmates, while rushing to finish before the deadlines. When you finally finish a draft and it comes back with so much to edit. 

It's like a roller coaster ride, I would say, you never know how exciting (or 'exciting') it could get the next second. 

Friends:

Well, like most of Love<3 mentioned, new school, new class, new friends. But even so, there isn't any of my new friends or classmates made that make me feel as warm as what 409 brought to me in the past two years.

And I really do miss 409 a lot a lot. It is really really true that "friends made in secondary school will be friends that last the longest". (I know this point has been reiterated many times by Love<3, but I just have to say it again). I'm really thankful to have them in my life, and always cheering me up when I felt sad or depressed. Thank you JH, G, P, S and YH for coming into my life. It has been a year full of ups and downs, and I'm grateful to have you guys accompanying me by my side, listening to my crazy rants or when I had my emotional times (': All the birthday celebrations, the sudden poke/hug when we see each other in school, or even a short gossip session is so precious to me. We didn't had much time to always have chats, but I'm so grateful that we are still as bonded as ever. You guys will be the bunch of people that will always see the crazy side of me. Always. And don't forget our dream to open a wedding company when we are older! ^^

Last year, I made many new friends from OG, s65 and TKD. There are many other lovely friends who perked up my life too. They've made my school life very interesting and I don't think I would survive J1 without them. It was always so much fun and laughter, and many encouragement too, especially from tkd. I never regretted joining tkd even though the physical training is so sick and Mr Guna never gives us long breaks. It's my first ever sports cca and I actually enjoyed it (: (Special thanks to junhui who pulled me in!)

And also to jiarui. I'm glad to have you as my sister, and I could always confide to you whenever I have problems. And you wouldn't know how many times you made me so touched. Thank you (': <3 

Family:

Last year, me and my mum fought a lot, especially the period when she got to know that I failed my promos. We weren't in good terms and I really didn't like the atmosphere at home. So I'm really thankful to my aunt who flew from Beijing to Singapore to try to patch things up between me and my mum, always talking to me and listening to me like a friend. When I came back from U.S., I could say me and my mum were like friends again (: 

Well, it's not xiaojing if she doesn't use Chinese isn't it? So just a little bit of Chinese, bear with me for a while!

2012是一个充满泪水的一年。

感动的泪，

生气的泪，

失望的泪，

难过的泪，

开心的泪。

似乎一辈子的泪水在2012年都哭完了。

所以2013年，我会更坚强、更勇敢地去面对未来的人生。

♥